Sometimes I get really annoyed with my own inconsistency in almost everything. When I was in college I loved to listen to lectures by Stephen R. Covey. In one of my favorites, he speaks about ranking the tasks in your life in order of importance and urgency. Like... paying my utilities bill = urgent. Reading a book to Gage without skipping a page = important. Getting up early enough to make a healthy breakfast for everyone = urgent and important. Obviously I've adapted it for the homemaker version of myself, but it works for any step of life. If you're a businessperson I'm sure you use some form of this formula to keep your life manageable.
Anyway, if you know me very well, you have probably at one time or another glimpsed my billions of lists. Daily/weekly/monthly/quarterly/yearly to-do lists, grocery lists, budgetary lists, big purchases coming up lists, people-I-need-to-write-to lists, meal lists... lots and lots of lists. When I realized how much more efficient I was when I made lists and organized them according to the urgent/important formula, I was like, hey this is awesome, and I've kept at it since.
Until this past week! I kind of dropped every ball and that's that. I feel like I have a giant rock in my brain that makes it so I can't really focus on anything outside of the most urgent and important matters. It makes me feel bad for my friends and family who I've passively ignored (please! I'm not trying to ignore you, it's just happening! I'm sorry! I love you!) But you know what I mean? I don't know if I've ever done this before.
It's weird, but it is what it is. I am hoping for some clarity by the end of this week or maybe beginning of next week. I mean, I'm hoping the rock in my brain will get a little smaller so I'll be able to focus on more. I haven't made a list in days! I went grocery shopping without one today and it was like really liberating. Just grabbing this and that, "oh we might need that", "oh, that looks good. What'll I do with it? No idea." Yeah... my kids are confused. I'm a little confused. Who the heck am I?
Gosh, I sound like a weirdo in this post. Here's to accomplishing the urgent/important and then saying to hell-o with the rest ;)