09 April, 2013

The song only I can hear


When I opened our bedroom closet to hang up clean clothes today, I felt a pulsing thrill that I've never felt before.

This is our closet. Me and Steven's.

That spot in the middle where his clothes meet mine and they kind of intermingle with each other - his button-ups mixed with my cardigans - I am so lucky. I got butterflies in my stomach and goosebumps on my arms. Feeling so emotional over a closet? Huh? And then I set the clothes down and closed my eyes and let myself think.

Every day that our clothes stay in that closet is one more day of success. Every minute, hour, day, week, month, year that we stay together and in love, we are beating statistics and averages and expectations. I don't think that forever means what it used to. That's one of the reasons that Steven was the one for me. He and I see forever the same way - 'until there's no until'. We aren't bound to each other only by a marriage certificate or even the sealing that was so very sacred and special. We're bound to each other because we love, forgive and respect each other.

And the truth is, there have been many several times in the past five years when I've been a straight up brat. We've slammed doors and endured icy silence and cried and shut down. Marriage is hard. Love is hard. But I've discovered that Steven Harrison Redfern is worth every second of difficulty and heartache - both inevitibilities in a relationship between two imperfect people.

I want to make him happy more than anything else in the world. And no one else comes close to making me feel the way he makes me feel. I am myself in every way with him. I am my best and my worst and he loves me at both extremes.

"You don't love someone for their looks, or their clothes, or their fancy car, but because they sing a song only you can hear." - Oscar Wilde


12 comments:

  1. Beautiful post! So very happy you found your perfect person to spend your life with!

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    1. Thanks :) You guys, too. I love your little family.

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  2. This gave me chills. LOVE YOU.

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  3. Awww... This is such a sweet testament to marriage. :-)

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  4. Love that quote. You two are a great couple. :)

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    1. Isn't it a great quote? Kind of reminded me of Happy Feet when I first read it ;)

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  5. I love those pure moments of inspiration. I had a similar experience while pruning a hanging flower basket so many years ago. It was one of those rare opportunities where you see things, ordinary things, the way God sees them. And suddenly the ordinary means something more-- extraordinary! This was beautifully written, and that quote is wonderful as well. Thanks for sharing!

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    1. Kati, Yes! I am writing down your comment and putting it in my journal. Wouldn't it be amazing to see things in an extraordinary way all the time? I love this comment! Thank you!

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  6. Very sweet. It is often in the simple tasks that the most spiritually charged moments I found. :) here's to many more years.

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    1. Thank you so much, Katherine! And that is so true - maybe it's when we're doing the simple things that our minds are freed up enough to feel inspiration.

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